http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net My very own blog Thu, 20 Aug 2009 04:22:11 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I'm not sure, who, what, where, I'm suppose to be anymore. I feel really alone, I feel really tired, I feel so distant, I feel frustrated... Maybe I should sleep, but these dreams are starting to get to me again, I threw up when I woke up this morning, the dream I ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2009/08/19/where-do-these-wings-fly-to/ Yesterday I went to my best friends house, I hate calling her a best friend, it sounds so juvinelle to me and she is more of my sister than anything. We were talking and she told me her mom was worried about me being able to move out with them next ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2009/08/15/a-reflection/ hmmmm something went horribly wrong somewhere... I got turned around, ended up in a diffrent part of town, now I"m all lost... I don't know what it is I want.... I don't know where it is I want to end up. I have a vauge idea,  a shimmering outline, but the picture is ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2009/08/14/damn-gps-is-broken/ Here I am, writing, it's been awhile since I've wrote here, I"m not sure why I'm back, I think it's because once again I'm feeling lost and confused, and I don't have many other places I can vent uncensored and without people hauling me off to the looney bin. I"m tired, ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2009/08/12/rage-triggers/ I feel so dirty...so so so sick Everytime I close my eyes, everytime I try to sleep, I can here...I can fucking feel..................... I feel so sick, I am so fucking disgusting,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Rage lives inside me, I am so tired, but to sleep is to close and to close is to rember...to be ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2008/10/08/because-i-am-disgusting-triggers/ Drive...Drive..I can never drive fast enough to get away from me Going fast, loud music, anything to block out all the thoughts, anything to just be noone, No Sparrow, No Pip, Just nothing.... I wonder who I am anymore. What thoughts are mine, what wants are mine, I wonder if I ever was ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2008/10/04/together-in-confusion/ I am completetly utterly losing it...and I will go laughing all the way to the loony bin. This morning...on my way to school I went beserk...you know in the movies..when there is a guy in a straight jacket and he is laughing for no reason..and it is the eeriest laugh you ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2008/10/02/laughing-all-the-way-triggers/ I am a complete mess..I am a failure...I am an asshole...I am so many names...I am so undesreving of the kindness I recieve.  Why do I have a weakness...why do I have a tendency that when I fall I don't just fall I completly collapse? I take myself to a whole ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2008/06/07/i-should-really-clean-my-act-up-but-im-out-of-soap/ It has been awhile since I've posted..I'm never alone to post yet today I am thank God. I don't know what to think..I don't know where I want to go with my life anymore..I graduated high school, but what happens now? I have general ideas of where I want to be..I ... http://silversparrow.psychcentral.net/2008/06/05/mud-pies-make-messes/